Motivation Monday?

My parents are probably the only ones who didn't like me wanting to be a dentist. My mother now says she supports me no matter what (first time ever hearing that ever ever ever in my life) and my dad probably is still salty that I'm not taking his advice and going to medical school. I'm really stressed out but I'm managing everything -- I think at least. I want it to be like this throughout this entire year and on. I want to have my shit together all the time.. because if I don't, I break down and yea. I know that I got super sad in the beginning of the year because all my friends seemed so carefree and they just hung out 24/7 while I was stuck at my desk trying to organize my life and get my shit together for the upcoming year. I still do get a little bitter thinking about my workload compared to theirs.. but I mean, I want to be a dentist. and it is worth sacrificing my nonexisting-anyway-social-life-kind-of-thing. Study hard Rachel, and be the best dentist out there. Even though I kind of don't.. I believe in you!!! Haha... my lack of self confidence is like pathetic, but I'm working on it. Yeah who's gonna believe in me if I don't even believe in myself?!

Remember these verses:

Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 3:13-14

Remind yourself of your ultimate goal everyday, and know that God is with you always.
He will be with you through it all because he knows that you are doing it to glorify him.

Nice self-talk. Peace out.

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Me and vegetarianism update:
I am not "vegetarian" anymore. I just eat mostly foods other than animal flesh. But I like sushi and can't give up sushi so I eat it but not often obviously because I'm a broke college student. It's funny because I am now tempted to eat like spam and ham and I think it's fine to eat it but then when I think of actual pork and chicken, I get disgusted. I think it's the actual flesh that turns me off -- but then when I REALLY crave the taste, I would eat it.
People do not understand this logic of having a mostly plant-based diet, so I just tell them I'm a vegetarian. Sigh.

My life lately:

• overwhelming amount of stuff to do
• Human anatomy&physiology is gonna be the end of me -- but i am surviving.. for now. SO much reading and SO much info being thrown at me to memorize.
• ochem is fun for now. i might minor in chemistry! -- just to have something to back me up if i fail in life i don't know.. this means i need to make an advising appointment.
• freshman team thing was busy/stressful last week but it's fine now because we're not planning anything
• i am B R O K E ! i've been spending WAY too much money! textbook, futon, bills, eating out, retreat.. i thought I would have more money left by now but it's scary how I used it all up! no more eating out for me this month. i "earned" some money by selling textbooks too but it's barely anything now..
• i am trying to get into a research lab! i had my interview today so i'm hoping that i get the position! i get to work with fruit flies and it makes me feel like a cool nerd
• i need to practice the cello....... lol..... i feel so awkward to practice it when my roommates are around though.
• i need to stay on top of my things this year forrrrr rrrrrrrreeeeeeeeaaal.
• i need to run errands tomorrow.
• i've been having a very hard time waking up... my bed is so comfortable :(
• i need to exercise because i feel like crap. and i will do that tomorrow if i wake up early enough.
• kinda just want to study 24/7 and not socialize sometimes